Friday, December 31, 2004
Action Of The Day~ Sleeeeeeeeeep
Weeeeelll well; I slept from 6am to 6pm har har har!; I was kinda tired ^__^ only reason I got up was cuz they woke me to take the new guy to bring plates for everyone and stuff. Otherwise I would of have stayed in for a while and rest hehehe... today I saw Bourne Supreme with mah pal Trevor and we enjoyed it ^^; someone got me mad cuz he kept interrupting us and he pulled my hair a couple of times; so I got pissed and threw my stuff on the ground and stood up tall and looked at him ebily.... that guy started to back away slowly and all scared saying 'I was just playing man, I was just playing'... Heh; they dont know me =p
Ok, for future reference for mah friends and stuff... I REALLY hate ppl that interrupt me while watching a movie or playing videogames.. I really do hate it; its like one of those things that just irritates the living crap out of me, you know? But anyways; today in 2 more hours it'll be 2005 W00T!
This is the year that I leave the army and my new life begins ^^; 2004 was eventfull to say the least; I learned more than I bargained for and suffered because of it; but I don't think it was bad that all these things happened to me (selfcentered, I know; after all, this is MY blog, not anyone elses xD).
all I have to say for this year that's ending is...
"Thank you for what you have given me and taught me but please... NEVER COME BACK! xD!!"
Thursday, December 30, 2004
Pet Of The Day~ Mickey
So here I am again! yet another day in a row posting in the blog.. I really missed this blog I tell you; the one I had looked cool but it didn't give me the enthusiasm to post everyday like this one does ^___^
Well; the pet of the day is the cat Mickey! He's been around for months already and I've known him since he was a lil kitten; so he thinks ofme as his mother or something cuz he is always hanging around me and sleeping in my lap.... It's like he prefers me over everyone else in the room... WORD! lol
So yeah; today I went to sleep at 5am after playing 4 hours of Star Ocean and I woke up at 4 pm without shit to do all day, so I played some more Star Ocean! xD; then at 7 I went to work for like 4 hours til 11pm, and here I am now... online ^__^... currently talking to Lani and Amy..
Geh; not much to say today... its been kind of dull; nothing happening; just been sleeping, eating and playing vgames all day... aaaaah I missed this life; I really did ^___^
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
Surprise Of The Day~ Day Off!!!
Chillin! I thought I was late for work today! >_>; so I got dressed real quick and got there 20 mins past the time Im supposed to be there >_<!... then the boss said to me.
"What are you doing here? you know you don't have to come in anymore right?"
Me~ "huh? I dont? o.0"
"Nope; you are off now"
Me~ "OK! =D... whoo hooo!"
Then I went to Play Star Ocen 3 all day xD.. I got 12 hours now =]; the game is kinda challenging... so far its kind of easy; but I can see how it will complicate a lot X.x.. and get haaarder!
Today, thats all I really did; I heard Amy's Voice singing xD!; I can feel her pain as she sang the song... kinda feel how she has lost things, dunno how to describe it; but I can feel it in the song and in her voice ... hmmm, let's see.. oh yeah; I started talking to a girl in Indiana again... it's been 2 years since we talked.... When I was there I used to like her and talk everyday in Yahoo Messenger; but she didn't like me; so I kinda stopped talking to her a lil after being turned down; and then she told me that she loved me.... but ofcourse everything was different by the time she realized it, my feelings had changed already so we never got anywhere and we just stopped talking.
One of the first things she asked me was if I had a gf, lol... well; all I know is that the feelings that once were are no more with her; so even if she had a chance it'll be with someone that doesn't love her as much as I could.
Just felt like sharing a lil bit more about my past xD.... well, now Im off to Admin a lil =]
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
Event Of The Day~ Mental Sick Call
wheeeeeeeeh! Ive been singing and humming 'Breath No More' Of Evanescence xD! I luv the song ^__^.
Welllll, today wasn't too bad; I had 4 hour sleep because I had to go to another camp and I went to sleep at 5am playing Star Ocean 3 mwahaha! that game ish awe; I luv it so far, and Ive only played about 6 hours ^__^. So anyways; I went to the other camp to go to the mental evaluation thingy I got every week now.... wonder why? because I kinda have this problem waking up you know...
So many worries and stress and getting pissed off, and insulted; and blah blah blah; that it finally got to me, so I can't sleep well at nights sometimes X.x... so they want me to go to mental sickcall and see if they can help... of course I know they can't =p... I already know everything they tell me; so it's just a waste of time.. but at least it gets me off work for a lil bit mwahhaha!.
So ok, I was there for a few hours and they gave me homework o.0... what kind shit is that? LOL! give a mentally unstable person some homework to add to the stress o.0; ah well; whatever, I prolly wont do it anyways ^__^.
Well; Amy is on right now so Im gonna go talk to her ^__^; tchuss!
Monday, December 27, 2004
Game Of The Day ~ Super Metroid
Wassup! I'm back here! MWAHAHHAHAA anyways; everything was cool today; I was a lil late for work; but my boss didn't mind, which is cool ^_^. not that I would give a damn if he was mad at me; but still.. it gives me less things to worry about, know what I mean?.
Well; I received news that Im flying back to Germany in a couple of months; and I heard Im going straight there instead of going to Kuwait first ^__^ maaan; I keep hearing good news after the other! so Im pretty happy; I keep meeting ppl that care for me and ppl that I care for online.. hmm; what else? oh yah! Ive been playing super metroid all day with another guy! we beat it with 98 % (I can do a 100; but we were in a hurry xD).
Well; thats about it!, the RP site keeps getting members and it keeps itself busy; so I cant really complain about anything in life u know? everything is fine, going just as I want it to go =]
Sunday, December 26, 2004
Event Of The Day ~ Re-Opening!
Ladies and Horses; The Zanza man is back!... Yeah; I had to take a break and think about things you know?... think and more thinking about others... who is important... who would hurt me less; Whom did I love...
Some of you might think Im full of shit... but Love is something serious for me. Nothing stresses me out and drives me as crazy as Love; other things I can handle... fury; sadness; happyness.... all of those I can control and hide.... but Love is something I dont take lightly; and when I do, normally bad things happen...
But anyways Im back and Im still in Iraq; I got about 2 months left here and then I'll go enjoy life as I should! Right now I got some firends and stuff; My future seems brighter than before... and as much as I hate to admit it... other people make me feel secure... I've been a loner most of my life; But I'd be the first one to admit that I need others to survive and make me feel better and secure... more happy, and loved.
Being in this world often makes you think that no-one cares and that you are all alone... but all it takes is one person to say the right things.... or just CARE; to prove you wrong... you are not alone in this world.... that is one of the reasons I am the way I am.
WELCOME BACK EVERYONE!