Wednesday, September 29, 2004
Country Of The Day ~ Germany
Hello people.. yesterday I went to sleep at 1 am... and got woken up at 230 am.. o.0... at first it seemed like there were people comming to get me to send me to a secret lab O_O...
I got mounted on a bus real fast and then sent to an airplane... I was like WTF is going on!!!... next thing I know there is a buncha ppl with me and they give out the news... IM GOING TO GERMANY!!! xD
So here I am right now, In Germany... in a military hospital and stuff =); I finally got my credit card back activated, and I got a bunch of de- briefing... now Im just waiting til tomorrow when they are going to tell me at 1pm, when I got the appointments.
I finally got my IV tube taken out of my arm, so Im feeling more free!, ... but the best part of being in Germany is... I might be able to go to England for the weekend!! and you know what that means rite?... heeelllooooo ammmyyyyy.... ^___^
This is so cool... but like I said.. 'I might' be able to go to England, not 100% guaranteed.. but its a possibility =D...
Im feeling better, still a lil weak and lightheaded... but god ^__^ ciaaoooooo
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
Home For The Day ~ The Hospital
Yeah yeah... they had me starve all day =p, but I snuck out for a few minutes and ate some cookies ^__^, so anyways, I flew in the helicopter for about 30 mins and got a urinalisis test for drugs (which was negative of course =p) and I had a CT scan (computarized tomography or something if Im not mistaken)...
The CAT scan results came out and there is something abnormal with my brain o.0... the medic said it could be very normal on me or it could be something serious; so I'm staying here to get more exams on me and stuff -.-... Im still hungry, Havent eaten (besides cookies) for more than 24 hours *sigh*... so ok; after that, I was moved to the resting place and they did a EKG test on me (monitors the heart and makes sure that blood is flowing everywhere on my body... I passed =p which means everything was fine with me ... now all around me are iraqui ppl without legs/arms, and som other ppl with minor injuries -.-
Ah well, there is a internet cafe center here on the hospital, so that is where Im chating from; these comps dont have MSN though >_<... I'm still getting IV through my arm annndddd..... I'm waiting for food =p... Amy is bed riden also =( *cuddles with her in bed*
Vehicle Of The Day ~ Helicopter
I passed out this morning for more than an hour.... seems I was in some danger there... the reason? I dont fucking know o.0...... anyways, I seem to have woken up, got dressed and fell under the bed o.0... then found 2 hours later by my boss and I didn't wake up no matter what they did.. so I was sent to the clinic where it seems they pinched my finger, stripped me off my clothes, tried to put IV on my arms, but they couldnt hit the veion after 6 tried on both arms... so they had to put the IV on my neck....
What I remember is being woekn up by my boss and tthen going right back to sleep, no change of clothes or anything... and next time I woke up I found myself naked, wrapped up in some kind of aluminic blacket , tied down to the bed thingy and I had a tube of IV sticking out of my neck.... I was like WTF!?!??!?!.... it seems that they had already called med evacuation for me, and so 5 minutes later I was sent to another base by helicopter... my first time in one =p... I was weak and lighteaded =/
when i got to the other base they restricted me to bed and no eating..., they took out the IV from the neck and placed one in my arm; my svital signals were below average and it seems they cant figure out what happened to me... so they want to run some tests to see if I was taken drugs =p... so they are going to send me to another camp in a few minutes... Im starving, I havent eaten in like... 24 hours >_<! it sux, Ive been sleeping all day; meh.... Dont worry people, I'll be fine
Saturday, September 25, 2004
Thought Of The Day ~ Only Claire
yeah, squall came back for a while last night; it sucked meh... if u know me, then u know what Im talking about =p. I made her suffer needlessly and it was stupid, so yeah Im sorry... I wont say much cuz I already said it in the Email I sent her =p. I just feel stupid, but my damn other personality just came up all of a sudden >_<!
Meh, anyways, I stayed up until late even thought I didnt want to.. but I guess I did stay up late to apologize... she never came. SO this morning that I had to wake up early, I was beat... I had to be the gunner for 2 convoys today, so I've been on the road since 730 am til about 5pm *sigh* Im tired, and I changed my awff siggie style a lil; talked to Kelly yesterday, which was nice =)... made a couple of Banners of Alucard from Hellsing, they could look a lil bit better, but I only got paint >_<! So Bear with them.... I hope she is ok...
Friday, September 24, 2004
MSN Person Of The Day ~ Hinata
geh, had to run this morning =p, well not run run, but more like sprint, we ddi 100 mtrs, 200, 300 and 400, total we did about 3 miles =p... giving it my 100% I am second in speed in my group with about 13 secs in 100 mtrs =).... but I still hate running -.-... meh, also I stopped smoking for good ^^, I mean I didnt have a reason before, not even if it hurt me, or killed I didnt really care about it... but now if someone i care about asks me and seriously wants me to smoke or they'll be sad... then I'll stop.. and that is what happened ^^.
Maaaaan, its dinner time and Im sill full from this morning >_<! I had a LOT of food... lets seeeee... I had 4 slices of bread, 6 pieces of bacon, ham and cheese omelet, 2 hashbrowns, nutribar, 2 yogurts, a bowl of cereal and a croissant... and if you include drinks, then I had a bottle of gatorade, 3 cups of cherry juice, and a an of coke; I feel like Im missing something tho o.0.... ah well ^^. That was my breakfast =D. It gives you an idea of how much I can eat =p.
Today there was a funeral ceremony over here, but I didnt wanna go so I spent all day in my room playing xenogears and winning some Domino xD! also re-read some of Kelly's letters =/ annnddddd, what else? crap Ive talked to Kiros on MSN and got him to join the triple triad online site ^^ I beat him a couple of times, bringing my victories to 60 ^__^... talked to Hinata and she is nutsy but coolz ^^, just gotta know how to talk to her, thats all.
Now Im listening to Hellsing OST =)
Thursday, September 23, 2004
Task Of The Day ~ Sweep
Few things have happened, Yesterday was a surprise. They put me up as a driver in a convoy; not only have I not driven on a convoy but once.. but I havent been a lead vehicle driver! And that was what I did yesterday; lead vehicle driver on a convoy ^_^. Yeah it was a surprise, but it was a new experience and I liked it =).... well besides the fact that I almost crashed and all, har har har!.. yeah I was about 1 inch away from the vehicle by the time I was done pressing the breaks, and Im not exagerating; I think that I touched it slightly as I finsihed stopping >=D... What can I say... I got mad driving skillz! mwaahhha.
I drove at top speed of the vehicle all the way ^__^, I love to drive fast and I cant stand driving slow, it pisses me of to have a slow driver on front of me grrrrrr. SO ok, yesterday also I was playing with some wodden sticks like if they were swords (more like showing off) and then I clashed them together so they would both break; what I didnt expect was that one of the pieces that went flying stuck my chest and stabbed me near the heart and I started bleeding, it wasnt that much, but it could of have ben an eye O_O.... ah well, Ill prolly do it again sometime anyways ^^...
Now as of today, I started the day sweeping, then I had to escort Iraqui guys and make them work... so mah boss told me to make em sweep xD! so all Ive been doing all day is sweep sweep swepp =S... then almost at the end, 2 of the 3 guys didnt wanna work anymore and didnt listen to me, so my boss told me to send them back home and they dont get paid lol... I felt sorry for the fat guy that worked hard so I gave him 5 $ =).
Ooooh I had a few dreams last nite, I remember that in one was my boss 'Eric' and he was on a bicycle xD!.. on the other dream... I dreamt that it was Jade's 16th Bday and u know that we dont actually talk anymore rite?... well she came out of nowhere and she told me to go to a house at 7:30 pm, but the thing is.. she was supposed to be having a bday party at that same time somewhere else... so what did she want? leave all of her friends/family abandoned as she came to see me at that place both of us alone o.0... it was weird... but nice ^__^
Well, Im more in Love with Amy everyday, crazy love, needy love, lovely love, whatever kind of love you can come up with.. I have it ^_^, and it only seems to be growing stronger with each passing day. And the best part is... She feels the same way ^__^, and as impossible as it sounds, she might be more madly in love that I am xD!!... *hugz*
Sunday, September 19, 2004
Game Of The Day ~ Triple Triad
Hmmm, got in trouble yesterday xD!, kinda forgot to take me M16 with me.... but I dont need it really! I got the big gun M2 (50. cal) so I dunno whats the big deal... so anyways, now I gotta carry my weapon around everywhere for the next week xD!! sux... meh; I came in a lil late yesterday nite and Amy was gone already :'(.... ah well, Ill catch her later ^^.
hmm, what else? been playing the awesomely Xenogears, its supreme! I love the game ^^.... oh today there is a concert over here, but its country music =p so I dont think Ill go.. Country music suuuux!, its supposed to be mandatory for me to watch it... but Ill dissapear xD... been playing triple triad with Hadji, he is not bad, just gotta learn the rules and he'll be alight ^_^.
I caught a mouse... it was dying =(, it was so cute! but too bad it had a wound on its stomach, I wanted to keep it.. it was so small and cute... it dieeed =(!!!
god Im so BORED today.... bai!
Saturday, September 18, 2004
Movie Of The Day ~ Underworld
whew... I threw some ice at guzmans neck, he made me spill my drink, then I put some taco meat on his back and he learned his lesson xD!!! it was a blast and hilarious mwahaha anyways, I finished watching Lain, and it was pretty cool, weird EXTREMELY WEIRD but cool ^^.. also started to watch Abenobashi, and it just mocks other series and its funny as hell ehehe...
Last 2 days Ive been sleeping when I should be online and missed Amy for a couple of days T___T Im a bad bf =p... I miss Kelly, where the hell is she? o.0 hasnt been online for a week, no contact with me or tom that he texted her.... *sigh* hope she alright. Amy is having a good time at Uni, which is cool, Im glad that she isnt suffering =). hmmm been spending lots of time on FF8-2, been talking with Hadji lotz, anddddd... shit what else? well just missing Amy really, she is back on AWFF ^^, so I had to divorce Lani and keep our dog >=D.
Bleh, I had some things to update and say, but I kinda forgot *shrugs* next time Ill try to update as soon as things happen >_<.
Thursday, September 16, 2004
Anime Of The Day ~ Serial EXperimental Lain
I slept most of the day yesterday =), let's see... not much happed and I dont feel like writting much. So I woke up worked, got a new 50.cal cuz the one we had b4 was messed up, SO I got to be the first one to use it >=D... I fconfigured it and fired about 60 rounds ^__^. It felt good to finaly fire a weapon that works!! xD
Been playing Xenogears and Watching Lain lately =).. Lain gets me to think about life and internet.... and people, its ok... sowwey I wasnt online much yesterday, but Ive been recovering my lost sleep time ^^... bai!
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
Band Of The Day ~ Seether
I slept 3 hours this morning @_@.... and now I got a 24 hour duty, where I gotta stay awake all night! LOL!... yeah thats rite, I gotta stay up at the internet cafe!, well good thing is that I'm online all day!... that is when the fricking server is not fucking up and D/Cing me! >=C...
Well, I'm still spending here all day so I figured I might as well start the Members Award today that I got time =)... Amy never came online which sux a lot; but she told me not to worry if she couldnt make it, so I wont ^__^... I just wonder how it went for her, u know?
hmmm what else? well others than getting pissed at some people, deleting and blocking others in MSN, and all kinda stuff; nothing really happened... Oh yeah I played FFX last nite =)....Tidus is HP 20.020 ^___^
Monday, September 13, 2004
Movie Of The Day~ The Nightmare Before Christmas
Ok, most of the day i slept ^__^, got up late, at around 830, went to the office and worked for 15 minutes, I saw everyone off (I finally stayed back for once) and I went right back to sleep until like 2 am hehehe... they woke me up and told me I had to go on a convoy to get some food, and to get ready >__
So I got geared up and I mounted the vehicle... as soon as we were ready to leave the base, they cancel the convoy for some reason >_
While I was doing that, someone called me to accompany my commander (biiiiiig boss) to pick up food from the front gate... so I did and we waited for like 15 mins b4 we could finally get the food. it looked awesome! too bad I had to wait 2 hours to eat it tho T___T... I was starving!. But anyways; I asked my commander about when are we leaving Iraq, this camp and what equipment we are leaving behind and dates and stuff.... I would give details, but Im not supposed to give out this information.. spies and all monitoring the interenet and all. So let's just say that; we are still on schedule and things are gonna start to calm down hopefully once we move out.
But tonight... I was talking with Amy and one of my good friends asked me if he could check his email; only to read it... well I figured, that if he is only going to read it then it ok.... well that mofo spent 1 hour checking, replying and downloading pictures off the net; even after I told him that my gf was on waiting for me and that she had to go soon... but did he stop? nooooo, he kept on going.... I cant believe him; I mean, Im sure he would be upset if I did the same thing while he was talking to his wife... and I abuse if he tells me that his wife is leving, but I still dont stop... now that is fucked up and I told him that was the last time I let him on... and all he said was "Im sorry man".....
whatever.... *pissed*
Saturday, September 11, 2004
Game of the Day~ Xenogears
You know what is crap? that there is going to be a concert of Puddle Of Mudd tomorrow in a base 30 mins away from me! =O!!! yeah I know, it doesnt sound bad, but great!!... only problem is.. I CANT GOOO!! this isnt fucking fair! *pardon language =p* I mean... I know I wont have another chance to be on one of their concerts for free and be like close up to them and maybe talk to them and them dedicate music to me! (soldiers)... that IS crap.... *sigh*
so not fair... anyways, Im surprised that Lucrecia PMed me, not only that but also come to my blog! o.0!... Let's see for how long her interest on me will last =p.. I give it a week or less before she stops PMing and checking this blog xD!... if u think Im wrong, then prove it to me Lu =p, meh, besides that I've been playing some games... and recently I started playing Xenogears again; its a classic and an awesome game! =D.... well Amy is now online so Im gonna go talk to her <3.... cyas!
Friday, September 10, 2004
wrokage... and hiding... that is all I gotta say xD!
Thursday, September 09, 2004
Been playing Shinobi lately, My good friend and fellow videogame master Boggs (Ill call him trevor from now on) lent it to me =)... The game is kinda easy and linear, so I dont lik eit htat much, I play a level, I beat it and then quit and play something else cuz it gets too dull >_<! but its a nice game tho... not one that i'd buy, but nice to claim that Ive beaten (whenever that happens).
Man, I slept 10 hours today at Dcell xD!! And Im surprised that SGT Kitt didnt say anything to me for it cuz he was in charge... well, we didnt have any prisioners so I guess it didnt really matter.... I miss playing Triple Triad with Tom and Mosherman *sighs*... also Amy is starting skool monday xD!!! sh e thought it was in like 2 or 3 weeks, but meh; her going to skool means less time online.. but maybe going to awff (but I doubt it since she doesnt really feel like belonging there).
hmmm I called Kelly, but she didnt pick up.. maybe she was talkign to someone else *coughbillycough* so it's ok ^^... I got a video of myself smoking and then coughing and spitting xD... It wasnt on purpose but I did xD so Ashford *who was recording* started to laugh at me and of course I laughed along xD... now I sent the video to 2 peeps already =)... Sigh
Anyways, Ive been learning and learning how to use the game maker, so I can make my own original ff8-2 game on the computer =)... hope I get good enough to make it look like the real deal ^__^
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
I feel pretty much like an ass and an Idiot right now -.-... why? well, I know I've been treating Kelly a lil unfair and bad.. or how she said 'in a vindictive way' and it's true... but I had my reasons; which were making her dislike me and stop her feelings, at least until she just barely acepted me as a friend? why you ask? because it's hard on me... meh, I dont expect forgiveness or sympathy... but ever since I told mutti that I would stop talking to her 'that' way... well, the best way was to make her dislike me more; or at least I thought, you know, keep some distance... hmmm, it wasn't easy on me or her the way I acted, but I couldn't make the same mistake I did with Jade you know?
Well, why am I realizing all this and saying it now? because I realized that she believes in me... and even thought I treated her like shit lately and kinda ignored her... she still stands by me you know? I received a package fromher with letters, and I've been talking to her on MSN also lately... bleh and well... *sigh*.. I don't know, I've just not been myself around her anymore; I just didnt want to create any more problems, I wanted her to find someone also.... anyways, even after all I've done and said and stuff, she is still kind enough to talk to me... which I appreciate a lot; I didn't know how to behave around her really... but her still talking to me and telling me stuff, and be willing to tell me stuff; has proven to me that Im an idiot...
I Don't think her letters were stupid, they were revealing... made me see things that I didnt want to see; but I'm willing to do what she said at the end of one of her letters, she said.. I dont remember the exact words, but it goes something like this:
"I know we have lost somethings including your trust in me, but that is something Im willing to give back... if you let me"....
I'll let you... I'll be the same again Kel, and sorry about the bakaness of this old fart...
there really isnt much more to say.. or that I can think off... thanx for the Nightwish CD and the mercury... now I see why you like the song "Wish I had an Angel"... the beat is so cool xD!! First time I've heard the guy sing most of the song tho o.o... bleh, sorry again
Sunday, September 05, 2004
well as news... I GOT A POCKET STATION!!!! some of you mayb wonder wtf is that?... well its the lil thing that looks like a memory card, but it lets you play chocobo world of FFVIII!!! =DD!!!! Its the only thing I'm missing in the game... chocobo world... and now I have it... I feel that my life can be neded in peace now ^__^....
want more good news? It seem we are leaving this camp around the end of November and going to the other camp I was before.. which we will prolly spend about a month or so... and then we'll stay in Kuwait for a couple of week and then... THEN... A 30 DAY VACATION!!!!!!!!!!!! oh boy, oh boy... this is so great.. Im gonna visit EVERYONE I know and can visit off the net =D... if Amy has her apartment Ill stay with her for that time...oh man, this is great =)...
but do you want to hear the breaking news that has got me surprised and happy? well I still dont believe it, so I have to comfirm it with someone higher ranking than my boss.... but it seems like I might be getting out of the army in a year instead of 2! =D!!! Im pretty sure its a mistake, but u can always hope rite? ^__^.... lalalalalala... I finished watching cowboy bebop the entire series, and Im starting abenobashi right now ^^
ah well, i dont have much time online, so thats about it for news ^^
Friday, September 03, 2004
hehehe, forgot to mention yesterday that I was going on a convoy here in iraq and I am the gunner of a vehicle right? well, while driving down the road the driver saw a metalic container on the side of the road and he thought it was a bomb!!, so he told me to shoot it.. and I did xD... in the end there wasnt a bomb in there but it was empty!!!
So I took a pic of the container and myself xD!!! I got my tongue sticking out.. and I hate my hair, so dont bitch about it
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v322/Rurouni_zanza/People/me.jpg
xD!!! and bleeeeeh, it sux a lot that Ive been going out on convos everyday -.-... not one day off since I got here and tomorrow I gotta go again.. sigh.... oh yeah, also forgot to mention that I alsmot cut my fingers off O_O!, I was lifting something very heave by the binds and it cut my 4 finger, blood dripping out =p.. but Im fine tho =)... this morning I had to run with my section and it was ok ^__^ wasnt as bad as I thought it would be =), also beginning tomorrow Im starting a strict excersice program, I even got protein drinks to helo me out ^^... Im gonna give it all I got for myself and for my future job ^^
hmmm, what else? La pucelle isnt as great as Disgaea, but I just started playing it so meh I dunno... I havent had time to play or watch anything, and I've been sleeping 3 hours a day, so that tells you just how busy I am now.... dont get me wrong, I prefer being here with all my coworkers and have some fun working, than hating people while not working like I was before in that other camp... like today more people welcomed me, hugged me, blah blah... Im telling you.. Im famous xD... ah well
Since someone told me Im a sympathy seeker , I asked everyone I knew if I was and they all said a BIG NO; so it seems either that someone doesnt know me as well as they though they did, or that person knows me better than anyone in the world... you pick
Thursday, September 02, 2004
whew... I hate moving..., But Im finally back to my homa base ^__^v, Everyone I saw when I got back they said it... "We missed you, yadda yadda" which feels nice over the 3 month ago "Everyone hates me!", know what I mean? Well anyways I got back and first thing I saw in my room was about 10 + huge boxes of mail! =O!! I was so happy! like a kid on his bday or xmas ^__^, got over 20 new anime DVD's, a game that is like Disgaea called "Lapucelle Tactics"... I love disgaea, it's my fave tactic RPG of all times.. specially The dark Adonis AKA Mid-Boss "Haaaaaahahahahahaaaaa" I love his laugh xD "But ofcourse!"
Ok so that was the first thing that I saw.. then the second thing I saw when I sat down on my bed was Kelly's pictures... Before I left for vacation I had printed out 4 of her pics and taped em to the side of my desk so I could see her face when I woke up =p; It kinda surprised me to see the pics there when I got back xD. It was nice ^^.
I HAD to take a shower so I went and got naked, got in and 1 minute later, water ran out! T__T.. but a lil bit later it came back on and I finished showering =D... I also did Laundry, it is so tough to do it here because it's basically handwashed and wind dried =/, so it took like an hour to get done, and I was sweating like a pig!. So then I went online for like 15-30 mins and Kel got her internet back ^^, and Amy was on but the internet was so slow, including the MSN that I said 'fuck it' Besides, I had to clean my room, finish laundry, watch new anime, etc ^___^.. sorry again!
hmmm... I guess I've realiced something for a while now... When I used to come online when I was with Jade, it used to be fun, and looking forward to comming online everyday to see her =)... but then she stopped comming on MSN... and then Kelly happened. And before I knew it, I was comming online not because I was trully happy but because I was stressing over the whole relationships thing... instead of comming online and enjoy the talk (which I did sometimes) mostly I came on to try to fix the problems I had... And now that I am with Amy... well, I realiced this... because I am happy now! I look forward to comming online everyday and just enjoy my time and be happy; no worries no complications, everything seems perfect... I guess that what I want to say and came to the conclusion is...
"No matter how much you love someone, you have to make a choice that will make you happier" Kind of selfish, but Im glad I have Amy now =), which doesnt precesely mean that I stopped loving others all of a sudden