Thursday, December 18, 2003
Im tired, Im stressed and after 2 years of work Im finally going to england... Im leaving and having vacations for 2 weeks and meet My love; That is all I have to saw... adios and stuff. =p
Monday, December 15, 2003
uhoh!!! You all should know what happens when I say 'uhoh'.... it means I fucked up or something bad happened or have some bad news =p!!!.... well In this case, I fucked up xD!! went to sleep at 330am and woke up late for formation >_<!!! so I got reprehended!, but it isnt too bad, it's just that I hate letting ppl down like that >_<... ah well, whatever!
today was pretty boring, lucky enough they arent gonna give me the smallpox vaccine, if they would of have I could be close to Jade or noone else.... and I would of have been sick. Because that vaccine makes you sick and you can make others sick also just by toughing them =(... that is why Im superglad that I didnt get it! =D!.
and pfft, we dont work anymore really.. we just sit there looking dumb, waiting for hours until we can finally leave! its soo boring. but Im glad there isnt something to do!. Q got credit, which is good!, but she has a LOT of HW, which is bad... meh... well whatever, Im out of here!
Sunday, December 14, 2003
Well well well, BORED! Went to sleep at 430am, and woke up at 1230pm xD... I cant help it.. all this videogames and stuff just keeps me awake! =p right now Im in the middle of 3 games, FFX-2 (I just wanna get everything in the game now), devil may cry2 (which kinda sux =/), and Disgaea (A game that I dont want to start yet! =o!!)
blah, I'm packing today... here is a list of what Im taking with me =)
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PS2 w/games, all my DVD's, drawings that I've made, clothes once they come out of the cleaners =), Army uniform, Prezzies, personal hygene stuff o.0, videocamera, camera... thats about it! I'll prolly pack it all in one bag and then my backpack =).
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Can't believe there is only 5 days left =s, I wonder how it'll be, or what we'll do.. rui, david, kelly, charli-chan, utty and Jaaaaaade... I do wonder =q? meh, we'll see ^__^
Friday, December 12, 2003
AAAHHH! dont really feel like talking too much =p, but today was like day off! LOL... we wore civilian clothes and went to a couple of briefing, but it turned out we got kicked out... so we had the whole day off! until 1700, we had a formation and then we got off!.... ok today good news is.. Teresa is out of the hospital! =o! its awesome ^^.... ok what else? yesterday I beat FFx=2!!! =o!! it was coooooooolz! =D... sux to be whoever is reading this and havent had a chance to play it! mwahahahah!!! ok Im off
Thursday, December 11, 2003
=D *(k) Cure*
Well well, today I almost got into trouble again for being late! O_O! damn alarm clock is not waking me up! looks like that the volume turns itself down when I sleep! =O!! or maybe Im sleepwalking and turning it down so I can sleep more? BIG MISTERY! xD!!... anyways I got to formation in the morning with 15 seconds to spare barely >_<!
Also that pic that I sent Q, I placed it as my bosses wallpaper and when he saw it he got all mad and got me doing pushup xD!! but it was worth it!! should have seen his face and what he said "You think I want to see your ugly face all the time? hell no!" LMAO!!... besides that, not much going on today.. Im not technically working anymore =) so its pretty cool!
Tomorrow Ill go MSN prolly around 6 or 7pm =), and thats it! chauz!
Wednesday, December 10, 2003
mwahahha! ok no more uhohs! xD ... yesterday I saw Denise, but she didnt say anything (BTW... she works at a cash register where I buy my stuff at.. so its hard to avoid her o.0) I kept the convo as simple as possible... "hi, how are ya? thanx, bye!" lol, meh.. dont worry Q *ebil stares bak* if I was really gonna do something bad I dont think I would be putting it up in here ^_~
OK!! PT test got cancelled! =D!!! so Im happy, and today we wont work much cuz we dont have the computers today =), I also got my Anthrax shot 3 today which didnt hurt at all! =o! I slept 5 hours, but I woke up in time =) OH! Also I got 2 new mangas and Devil May Cry 2 =D... is kinda meh, so =p... and I lub ya Q!, just hang on! 9 more days! =O!! (K)
Tuesday, December 09, 2003
uhoh! double uhoh! yesterday I slept 4 hours and I was late! =o!! I was so late that my boss had to come wake me up >_<!!! meh, but I didnt get into that much trouble... also when I checked my mobile in the morning I had 1 text =) I thought it was Q, but it was Denise! =o!!!
BTW, denise is a woman friend of mine, whom I dont like at all! I mean physically *shrugs* anyways.. I think I've been too friendly then >_<!! cuz it seems she is starting to like me? O_O! she wrote 'Good night, sleep tight'... ok it may not mean much but 1... she never textes me! and 2, I mentioned something about her ex that day... maybe she took it the wrong way? aaahhh! if she asks why I didnt reply to her text, Ill say that I ran out of credit xD!!
triple uhoh!! Tomorrow I got PT test!! T___T if I fail it Im gonna be in a world of truble! T___T, like... maybe not getting promoted, and more nasty stuff like that... Im kinda nervous I mean I havent done PT for like forever! and Im out of shape =/... I really hope I pass it.. if not meh, its gonna be ugly... REAL ugly =p.
Thats about it... been bored and sleepy all day.. I guess the lack of sleep is starting to hit me =/... bye byes!
Monday, December 08, 2003
uhoh! Yesterday I slept for 2 hours only! =o!! but Im not that tired ^^ I was busy yesterday nite/morining, doing laundry, separating what clothes and stuff Im taking with me to the UK, which bags Im taking.. also I threw away all the cases of my DVD's and placed the discs on more compact thingies ^^ so I save a lot of room! hmmm also I was watching matrix reloaded on DVD all nite.. and... I played FFx-2, Im starting to get bored of the game.. I dunno. It's not THAT fun anymores =/... bleh.
what else? well today we had chain in command and we had to stay in one place standing up for 3 hours... it sucked! what else? well they had awesome food! hmmm... and alsooo...Cure came on tonite! =D so its cool to know about her ^^ looks like her mom might find out about me comming! =o dun dun duunnn.... but I dont really think anything will happen... just one of my feelings, but just in case we gotta cut the chat for a lil bit so they dun suspect nutting!.
And dont worry Q I behave ^_~, ppl are being friendly towards me o.0. I ALMOST FORGOT! I wrote a poem when I was thinking about Kelly-elly, I dont feel that way at all, but I just wanted to write something showing that I kinda understand and stuff =p... so here it is!
Oh, it's too much to hold
My body is screaming to let go
I'm so weak, I feel cold
In my hand now a blade and blood
When did I gave in to pleasure?
I was meant to hurt myself again
Now this tingling sensation is my treasure
My mind is forgetting pain.. with more pain
Bliss in now what once meant hurt
You weren't supposed to give me worry
It is because of you I selfdestruct
Let my scars tell you my story...
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It sux, but meh! lol sahha!
Saturday, December 06, 2003
heheh... I think I overslept a lil =) I woke up at 130 pm today! xD... but I went to sleep at 3 am so its ok I guess =p!! Yesterday I saw the matrix revolutions movie!!! =D!! I luved it ^^, I dun really see why ppl didnt like it and stuff, I thought it was pretty cool created =).. ya sure there are a lot of special effects and CGI stuff, but its still awesome! I really couldnt think of a better ending for the movie...
hmmm I finally finished sorting out the RP site and its topic.. lotz to close and Im surrpise by how many useless topics Mosh man and Jorik make... as well as posts >_< its like if they had lil imagination or just dont really care =/... well if it makes them happy to post like that...anyways! Im bored and so are you so Ill leave ya alone...
update!!! womans are hitting on me! =o!! I want to buy food and they started saying that y am I dressing so handsomly o.0!!!! and Im like... 'I alway dress like this?' >_Thursday, December 04, 2003
wheee, I slept 2 hours last night O_O!!! kinda feeling it now, but Im fine ^^, had to wake up at 430 am for some dumb stuff, then at 630 excercise, at 730 had personal hygene, at 900 formation, then work til 1200... I rented the movie 'Bruce Almighty' With Jim Carrey. Im gonna watch it tonight ^^.
At 1200 Q texted me and we talked for a while... mhmmm OH! right... today is my Bday!!! ppl remembered ^^ you know its weird because in my unit there is like 500+ people, and I can swear that 400 of those know me o.0!! some of them I dont even know or talked to em before see me walking around and they say 'hey wassup zanza'... and Im like... 'o.0 aaaah, wassup man!'... and once he leave Im like 'who the hell was that? >_<!!!
but nevermind that LOL, lotza ppl remembered my bday and texted me, or emailed me... oh right.. that reminds me... my father sent my mum and email with a greeting card for me... she foward it to me... but I deleted it without even opening it see what it said =p
and today I got off at 1500 so its being a good day ^^, chao!
Wednesday, December 03, 2003
mwahaha sly me... I was supposed to go to an appointment today at 830... but I slept in until around 1200 haha! and since noone was going also, noone found out that I didnt go and just slept all morining =p!! hehehe suckers!.
Anyways, Been messing with FF8_2 a lot now that Im a supermod, and Ive been closing topics, editing some stuff, creating new stuff.. its cool =) Im happy that Im able to close topics now! =D.. oh and in FFX-2... I got 26 % done; they actually show a percentage of how far you are in the game.. so its pretty coolz!.
hmmm anything else? well SGT's are being plain stupid again, talking and talkinga bout stupid crap, they wont let us go early just so they can talk; we dont even work! all they do is talk and talk.. geeez, talk about ego O_O... bah, well Imma happy's Q's happys too ^^
*waves at the first lady*
Tuesday, December 02, 2003
Well, sorry about yesterday, but meh... I dont really have noone to tell this in person so I had to let it out here =/... anyways, I already beated THUG (tony hawk under ground) in less than a day and right now Im playing FFX-2!!! Its pretty awe!, its girly lotz O_O, but its cool to make u smile and shake ur head a lot sometimes LOL!... Paine is coolz =D
ah well, I really do hope Q is feeling better =/ she said not to feel guilty. but if Im not to blame and neither is her.. then its her friends.. but the thing is I really dont like to point fingers and blame others >_<... ah well. Thanx for being there 4 me Jade... Luv ya.. and Im really glad you feel the same way.. u got no idea =D <3
ok, and today I had classes about alcohol all day so I didnt work! YAY! it was coolz today xD, even went to the gym in the morning with everyone O_O
Monday, December 01, 2003
AAAAAAHHH! *explicit language is comming do not read unless you dont want to hear me say this* Fuck everything! Im fucking tired of other people, I do understand them and that is what I hate the most! how they use others people's feelings and toys with them just to attain what they want.... Make others suffer for their own fucking sake! Its like they think they know what is best for someone else, everything is so fucking wrong, the world is fucked up... I really do appreciate them worrying about Jade so much. But they dont know me! how can they say Im something without any proof? what kinda shit is that?... and the worst part of it all, is that they make her suffer... Ive seen it all before and seen what that kind of 'friendship' they provide... Yeah they say they will end their friendship if you dont do what they think is right, and David? he is just sooooo jealous, and hates me because she loves me... He think Jade should love him and not me... he thinks that it is not fair that a stranger can take her away from him.... I know what Im saying too well, I bet that if he saw me he would want to punch me at the very least... I... I...I've had enough of situations like this and 'friends' like them........ It's tiring... they cant be called true friends if they make someone suffer that much.... But me..... heh.... always so stubborn me, dont want to give up and would do the impossible to make things happen, do the illogical things... the crazy things, the things people think is stupid, but its worth it... like seeing a stranger that lives across the sea, just because I like them.... I mean, is it not worth trying for?.... sometimes it makes me think.... Is it relaly worth trying?... Im tired of trying, it had always been the same result each time... what makes me keep trying?... Hope and Love.... why do people think its not worth it? or that Love doesnt exist? Because they have been as hurt as I am, but have given up.... I want to be different... I like to love, I dont want to let go.... but its so hard. I'll never give up, but that doesnt mean that Im more important than other 'friends'... she might choose not suffering anymore and choose to give up. And I really couldnt blame her, because everyone gives up...... its like Im the weird guy, the nerd, the guy that is stupid and ilogical... the guy that breaks the rules and is hated just because he is different.... I cant really blame noone other than myself for being stubborn, and hoping... I would gladly give my life for the one I loved, I would travel around the world for that special someone... even if I didnt have money..... and what do others think of that? they think it is stupid.... or not worth it.... GOD Life is so complicated, you can hate and it doesnt hurt too much if you stop hating.... you can laugh and it doesnt hurt if you stop laughin.... you can cry and it doesnt hurt once you stop.... but god, you can love and its the worst pain in the world to stop loving..... As My final words... I wouldnt blame you if you chose the long known friendship over me... it would be logical... but now that I admited how I feel, I wont give up... just like Ive always done, stubborn,,, I love you too much now to go back.