Sunday, November 30, 2003
thanx Q, and ah well, today Im officially in love.. I already knew it, but I guess I didnt want to admit it >_
Saturday, November 29, 2003
well, yesterday night I cried =/... haha! what a great way to start todays blog! xD... Well I cried but not like a river, I just started to remember everything that has happened to me, everything Ive done, everything that has been done to me, people that helped me, people that hated me...and people that I loved and love now.... and well I shed a few couple of tears b4 I went to sleep... bah, love love love... the greatest thing ever along with the worst.
Friday, November 28, 2003
hehehe, well today I woke up at 4 O_O!! and went and got a new stereosystem for 50 $ ^__^, aaaah I should really sve my money =p... anyways I talked to Q today and I prolly sounded boriiiiing , well there is just so much I want to let out, that none of it will >_
Thursday, November 27, 2003
today I went with a couple of friends to eat out for thanxgivin day, food was cool and stuff I ate like 2 full plates, including an entire turkey leg O_O!! also I ate desert and had 3 smirnoffs and 1/4 bottle of wine ^^ it was yummy! Also there was this girl that stared at me O_O!, is kinda hard not to look at someone when they stare at u, the hardest part was when we said goodbye, in front of eachother I always looked into another direction but in the corner of my eye I could see her staring ! O_O!!! >_
Wednesday, November 26, 2003
alright, today was .. extremely boring! well not really... but IM bored now so =p! ok for startes we woke up at 5am to run for 5 miles, they were listening to Meteora when they had a formation also o.0... ok, cool, we came back at 830am to shower, clean and etc until we had another formation at 930am *rolleyes* all dumb.... so ok, after that I turned in my swords to the armsroom (not allowed to have me in my room =p) and then I got my anthrax shot number 2 anddd.. then when I went to check my balance in the bank.. I was in -155 $ o.0!!!
So I went to my bank and guess what.. someone had been stealing my money! =o!! so now I have to go to JAG (judge of Advocate General or something like that) to complain and get my money back =/, and thats about it! that was my 'fun'; day full of 'challenges' =p
Tuesday, November 25, 2003
hehehe today... loooong ash day, started to work at 7am and only had a 30 minute brake until 6pm =S!!! bullcrap! xD anywyas.. if u remmeber my last entry I said I was gonna do all those things? well as always.. I didnt!!! whooo hooo! so I did em in the morning =p
THAT REMINDS ME! my bar from re-enlistment got lifted! that means I can finally get paid a lil bit more, I can reenlist, get promoted, etc ^__^, so its all cool ... also I received news that I was hoping not to receive, but well... it happened xD so it sux..
also I was so bored yesterday that I just wrote down words that just popped up in my mind that rhymed and made a poem in like... 5 minutes o.0... I bet it sux but Im gonna put it up anyhow! =p *loves to torture u guys =p* cyas!
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Boredom takes over me
As I lay still and stare
Life is a waste and its killing me
come out and kill me here
End this nothingness called me
Because I dont really care.
What a waste, what a trash
life's got no taste, I fall then I crash
Bitteness inside of me
Will never turn from sour
I cant call you family
my family is the power
Loneliness now fills me
I cant escape this tower.
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LOL, this is not how I feel, but it just came up like that xD, bakaman!
Sunday, November 23, 2003
aahhh looking back on the song I just made yesterday.. I hate it! LOL, anyways, I'm talking to Q on FF8_2, cuz Im in the library... also Im worried about her Auntie, she's getting worse and stuff. I hate feeling helpless >_<! hmm what else? oh yeah I got Nuku Nuku, the anime.. and its pretty funny ^^
what else? ok, today I gotta clean my rom, polish my boots, and iron my uniform =/ life sucks! hehe, I prolly wont do em til b4 I go to sleep anyways, I cant bother with things I dont like to do ^_~... bah, Im bored... I need a... Snog!! xD
Saturday, November 22, 2003
hehehe, wwwwweell, Im bored o.0 xD this morning at 1am someone set off the fire alarm *rolleyes* and woke everyone up, so everyone went outside the building LOL, I was already awake so I ddin't get mad =p... in the end it came to, it was a guy that didnt even live in our building that set it off haha!, dork!
baaaah, Im broke broke broke broke... agaaaaaain lol, I dont care tho =) oh ya I made a poem but Im not gonna post it.. but today Im making up a song for a forums LOL, Im just doing it real quick and stuff so dont expect nothing fancy ^__^, well here ya go!
On the coldest of nights
Would you give me warmt
Will you please be my knight
All I need is your arms
~Chorus~
Embrace me, forever
Before the sun comes
I want us, together
Like we were before
It has all come to this
You have again deserted
I cant stop all this chill
The sun rose, but I’ve frozen
~Chorus~
I can’t live on now, Im so numb
How could I have trusted you?
Now I know I’ve been so dumb
Do you have a heart in you too?
I cant believe I was so foolish
Why did no one wake me up
This dream has me finished
The last drop that filled my cup
~Chorus x2~
Won’t some one come warm me?
I can’t possibly get any colder
Everything has now left me
Even if you don't come, I’ll be stronger
Friday, November 21, 2003
mwahahahah! boredom takes over! xD.. blah I passed the drivers training thingy.. and I got a dertificate! lol... cheassy but meh!, I worked half a day and got off the rest ^^ also I love my new clothes! I LOVE em.! I didnt try em on whe I got em... but now that I did, Im proud of myself.. I kinda really look like a model now ! well you see... I never really cared much about buying the latest clothes or whatever in fashion.. but well, I felt like it now and I must admint, they are coolz! baaaaaka me, I got my new DVDs! I completed Saiyuki series and Im 1 more until I complete the X series =)!... but Im also broke! I got like.... 20 $ left! =O! sooo I dun think Ill be comming to MSN too much til I get paid
Thursday, November 20, 2003
Well, today we didnt do 'mierda' , xD we actually went for driving, but we were like really tired, so we ran off with the vehicle and hid in the forest and we all went to sleep in the car for like 3 hours LMFAO! so we didnt get to really drive today.. but I got night vision driving tonight, and that is sure to be done =)
ah well, Im excited today... I dunno for some reason Im happy, it maybe because I didnt do anything today at all, or maybe because it's almost set up my trip to the UK!~ I mean the only thing left is to pay for the hotel, which they already said they got a room available for me ^__^... ahhh, the sweetness of it all. I guess I should give my thanx to my snog for the sweetness and happiness too... so here are my thanx! "arigatou, danke, gracie, gracias, thanks, etc etc..." =)
Well, today we didnt do 'mierda' , xD we actually went for driving, but we were like really tired, so we ran off with the vehicle and hid in the forest and we all went to sleep in the car for like 3 hours LMFAO! so we didnt get to really drive today.. but I got night vision driving tonight, and that is sure to be done =)
ah well, Im excited today... I dunno for some reason Im happy, it maybe because I didnt do anything today at all, or maybe because it's almost set up my trip to the UK!~ I mean the only thing left is to pay for the hotel, which they already said they got a room available for me ^__^... ahhh, the sweetness of it all. I guess I should give my thanx to my snog for the sweetness and happiness too... so here are my thanx! "arigatou, danke, gracie, gracias, thanks, etc etc..." =)
Wednesday, November 19, 2003
mwahhahahahaha!!! Today was payback day *ebil face* mwahahah!!! Well, anyways, like everyday now *rolleyes* we had to drive, but this time it was me who got the liberty to do what I pleased.. mwahaha! so from payback yesterday I did what they did yesterday and worse! mwahhaa! LMAO! it was fun ^__^ I drove em into bumpy terrain, into ditches full of water, and they were all in the back screaming and yelling and cursing me LOL!!!, well you see... ppl in the back dont have seatbelts and they are seated basically in the floor ^__^ sooo.. I was going so fast that they couldnt stand still and they ended up hurting their ass, wrists, head and ribs ^___^
well dont look at me like that!!! that was from yesterday =p besides, no serious injuries and they all agreed it was cool and fun... but now they call me 'Crazy' ...I wonder why xD!!! oh and today I got the plane ticket to London, and Im planning on making reservations soon *hope they got rooms available* thats about it!, tonight I gotta drive in the dark again.. so I wont be on MSN.., byes!
Tuesday, November 18, 2003
hehee, ok1st!.. today I took random quizes of which character I am in Buffy =P!! and well, I got 2 Giles >_ <
http://www.cifnet.com/~geenius/buffyquiz/ang.html
~Welcome to broodsville! You're Angel! Strong and silent. You're the guy all the girls want. You're irrisitable, but hard to get. Whoever gets you is a lucky girl! Keep up the charm!~
hehehe I guess I was bored! also today was fun! driving around and stuff =D, we drived through mud and stuff, we went through some deep puddles at high speed so me and the rest of the ppl that sitted in the back of the HMMWV we literally flying in the back xD!! I even kicked a guy >_< and almost fell off the vehicle, but it was all good fun! it reminded me of rollercoasters LOL
ok and tonight I got night driving... with lights on and with Night Vision Googles.. sounds like fun! too bad it's so late I cant get on MSN.. but its all good =) ciao!
Monday, November 17, 2003
Heeloo! baaaaka me xD, well anyways today Im gonna be riving around all day ^^ until like.. 5 pm, so Im gonna be busy! I tried to buy my plane ticket today, but the line was waaaay too long. so Ill go early tomorrow =)... not much to tell... except that they cancelled my PT test... *relief* I thought I was gonna have to work hard for once xD.
and Oh yeah! Q and myself finally admitted to each other.. well actually I said that we both knew we had feelings and stuff, and she agreed! YAY! big yay... =), but I think I'll leave it at that for now... see what happens, and bleh! it all cool ^^, ok I gtg go now! bai!
Sunday, November 16, 2003
heh... well I talked to Q today, so it was kwel, even tho I was being interrupted by my friends xD, Im driving one nutz because I keep calling him Posh LOL!, but anyways... I just read what Q wrote in her blog, let me quote her... " Being alone can be nice but, it can start to make ya feel empty inside. Your feelings don't seem to matter anymore because you've got know one there to see 'how you feel"... I dont know if she realices how true it is what she is saying, but I know this to be true... Ive been alone for so long that I cant remember the last time I was 'truly' happy. Anyways, since the thingy from yesterday cant be read too well I'll write it here =)... "PROTECTOR~ You are the rock, the keystone of your friends and family. They lookk to you for support and leadership. You don't push for devotion or attention, but when the situation is dire, even the Idols and Exhibitionists will turn to you. You are the trusted, the loved. You have the capacity to love more deeply than any other type, and are fiercly devoted to your friends and lovers. Highly idealistic, you would sacrifice everything for a person or cause you believe in. But you trust so deeply and compassionately that a betrayal could shatter you. Jealousy is your downfall, and sometimes you need to give people more space and not become so enamored. Be careful who you place your trust in, for a Protector's broken heart will never fully heal. The world need more of you but you are few. And sometimes it seems like you carry the weight of the world on your shoulders." That's what it says below... which describes me pretty well -=)... oh yeah and today I got a computer!! I dunno if it works, Ill try it tonite! =D
Saturday, November 15, 2003
hallo!, sorry its been so long since I updated... but Ive been buuusy O_O, and besides, Ive been talking to Cure, my mom, rikku, danny and Kelly all at the same time, so Ive been like... busy talking to em, not even had the chance to reply on FF8_2 =s, but its all good, there is nothing better than talking to em =)
anyways, Ive been having drivers classes and yesterday I passed the first test.. it was kinda hard, but fast , so it was cool.. uh oh.. I gtg.well as a last word Ill say that I finally spoke to Jade on the fone and it was really cool, even tho I had kind of like a shyness attack and she had a hyper/sqealiing attack, mwahahha, but it's all good =). We finally got to hear eachother =)
well I gtg. byes!
OK, Im back and I took a ultimate personality test... and what they saidit's true and besides.. the guy they used in the picture is ANGEL!! my favorite series =), well just look and read it =)....
Monday, November 10, 2003
yayayayayayay! ELLE IS GETTING MARRIED!!!! I mean 
GOD! I wasnt expecting that one so soon!... she is like a sis to me.. and I kinda liked her once upon a time... but married!? well I dunno, Im in between happy and jealous, not jealous of him having ELle, but of me not having a wife.. =/, Even tho being alone is what I've chosen.. but that doesnt mean that I need someone =)...
I just cant bring myself to trust someone again... anyways! Im happy for her! oh yeah and I got my new DVD's today ^^, got a haircut also anddd... I'll prolly call someone today ^_~, well Im hungry so I'll go for now! MARRIED!!!
Sunday, November 09, 2003
Ok... *phew* yesterday I was watching FF Unlimited (is not that bad BTW.. when the Kaze guy wins a battle they have the same song they fot on the actual games ^__^) and someone came into my room, they asked for my help to move some stuff around in his new house, so I said OK ^__^v... He bought me food! I ate... Fishmac, McRib, Royal T, Big Fries, Big Drinks, 9 Nuggets and an Apple pie! I was hungry as you can see =).. then I noticed that I left my cellphone back home! >_< so I couldnt text Q =/
Then when we were done, he gave me a new couch ^__^, but the problem was... taking it back to my place o.0, so we placed it on top of the car xD and tied it up with some curtain ropes LOL!, so we were holding the damn thing all the way back to my place... you should have SEEN the faces of everyone that saw tha car with the sofa on top LMAO!
anyways, after that, I spent some time doing my ussual stuff (internet, play, anime, angel.. u know the deal) and then I went out at night.. drank a few Smirnoff's and didnt do much out... it was boring tyesterday nite... and thats about it!, now today I helped move some more stuff for another friend of mine... and now I wait impatiently for Q to come online ^__~
Thursday, November 06, 2003
AAAH! gimme some time to update plz!! had this window open for like 30 mins, and Ive been talking so much that I havent been able to type one word!, ok never mind, the last few days Ive been cleaning, cleaning tents, cleaning toilets, cleaning clothes... I feel like a maid!! but nevermind that cuz today I took the drivers test and out of 50 ppl only 3 passed ^__^, I think its thanx to Cure's Good lucks! xD
but anyways, I have bought so much shait that Im gonna be broke! j/k, it's like I cant stop myself if I see a new Anime DVD that I need to complete my series!, but bah, today I ate pizza, and ddd... the last few days Ive been sleeping like 3 hours a night and been watching movies a lot... like: The transporter, killing zone, daddy day care andhollywood something. its with harrison ford =) I liked the 1st, 3rd and last movie mentioned ^__^
well, I picked up my uniform for the desert today and thats about it! bai bai!
Monday, November 03, 2003
Ok Im back and Im staying in the forums =p, and well it was hell!! I got selected to do Infantry and special forces training... (The Elite ppl only got selected to do it) so anyways, we did Squad training for like 2 weeks and then we did a simulation of the real thing, like going inside houses (I got killed there =S) and blocking a road, supressing mortar fire, hostage situation, etc etc...
Ok so we did good, then 2 days b4 we left, we got smoked (excercises until we couldnt go any furter) because someone peed on someone elses canteen.. "rolleyes" so we were doing it from 10 pm to 1 am next morning, we ran with our weapons and my weapon was the heaviest since I carry an automatic weapon called the saw gun, M249.. and that run kiled me! we ran like 4 miles, but that thing was heavy and my back knees, shoulder, arms, and ankles hurted like hell, then we did pushups and situps with it, keeping the wweapon above our head without putting it down... that destroyed my shoulders X-x...
but besides that, it was all bullcrap =p, we had to go everywhere with 3 or more ppl, shower with a lot of peeps and stuff, it sucked, but Im back and its all good... Im back with Cure ^__^