Tuesday, December 02, 2008
Someday
I'll get rid of that useless map one of these days. Just too lazy to do it right now.
Past tomorrow is my birthday! I decided to quit smoking on my bday, cuz it's getting ridiculous how crappy I feel not being able to breathe like I did before. But with me aside, I remembered something as well.. Madison.
Still missing her, her kindness most of all... I've already spoken about it, so I'm not going to go into it. Just wanted to say "Gone but not forgotten".
On another topic, I want to remind you of the great series called "Heroes". While the show has been going a bit downhill and not feeling quite like the first season, I want to tell you that it is starting to feel like it did before ^__^. next monday is the last episode of the 3rd season, so now is your chance to download the series or watch it online or something.. trust me, you won't regret it =]
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Dark eyes schmark eyes
So the results of my (very brief) investigation about the black under the eyes led me to the conclusion that it is genetic.
While I don't recall my parents having black under their eyes, I do recall that my mother bruises very easy.... That is what black eyes are... Well, not really, but they act in the same manner. Now I don't want to get into the technicalities, but basically black eyes form because the blood vessel under the skin are leaking and the body is getting rid of the extra stuff.
I've never bruised easy and I still don't, but the skin under the eyes is one of the thinest layers of skin on the whole body. So I probably got some degree of inheritance from her.
People think that black under the eyes form because of stress, lack of sleep and stuff like that... but that is just a myth and the biggest factor is Genetics.. While bad nutrition can also cause it, it is very rare and I've been eating good.
So yeah, my black eyes is genetic and there isn't much I can do about it other than applying make up... But screw that! Besides, I like the blackness =]
Ok, that is over and done with, so now I'll just let you hear a piece of music that is pretty epic. You might have heard it and you might have not. But I want you to take a listen to the Second song on the first playlist called "Requiem of a dream or something like that... if you can't find it, it's because I haven't uploaded it yet. but I am working on it ATM.
Peace
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Dangerous
Ok Mr Crapbox 360 hehe.... On that note, FFXI isn't available for the original crapbox... piece of crap... And now for today's topic!
There are a couple of things that you must fear me for.
The most brutally dangerous part of me is getting completely pissed off. That is the one side of me that no-one wants to see, trust me... it is so brutal that even I don't want to see it. And that is saying something...
As I have explained before, I have this "ability" to know how people feel and think... While I do not exactly like that ability due to seeing how other people see me. It does give me tremendous insight into the hearts of people.... In short, I know all your weaknesses and things that will make you suffer.
While I never use it to make others hurt. If you get me to the extreme (And very rare) point of angerness. I will lose all my sense of morality, take full advantage and push my ability to the limit in order to come up with schemes and use my 'powers' to manipulate people in order to make the vengeful plan work.
I am not exagerating in the least when I say that murder plans come to mind... Yeah.. Me, the guy that hates all sorts of criminals and immoral people, will have very VERY strong urges to kill you and the intelligence and capabilities of acomplishing it and getting away with it... Trust me, I got the training, guts and intellingence to kill you.
But I have not murdered anyone, so don't worry... Mainly because I lacked thematerial resources to make it perfect. =p... In other words. DON'T FUCK WITH ME!
But rest assured that it takes a LOT to make me get to that level of angerness. People have stolen from me, broke my things, fired me from jobs, kicked me out of houses, etc, etc, etc and I never reached that level with them... I'm a pretty forgiving guy and carefree. I like to forget and forgive.
I think that the one thing that makes me reach that level of hatred is when someone shatteres my pride completely... That is the one thing that will get me to hate you... I am a very proud person and as long as you are cool with me I will always be cool with you.
But alrite, that covers the most Dangerous part of me, so now I'll go to the next level of me dangerous.
Me bored = Me dangerous.
Weird huh... how can me being bored drive me to be a danger? Good question!... I completely hate being bored... having nothing to do is the worst thing in the world to me... There are many levels to my dangerousness due to boredom.
The first level is me having too much time to think about things... Mainly my life.. One thought leads to another and then another and another. And before you know it I am all depressed and shit... Then me depressed = me low self esteem.... and that equals me contemplating suicide and that is me being a danger to myself and therefor a danger to the feelings of those that care about me...
Another level is when I am soooo bored and active, that I will do anything and everything you cn think of in order to keep me from thinking too much... In other words.. I do stupid shit. For example!
If I am bord at work I will piss off people that irritate me in order to have some fun at their expense... on rare ocassions I will work hard and clean and arrange stuff a lot... But wait, that doesn't seem to dangerous.... yeah, that is because there is stuff to do at works.
The problem is when I am at home and I am bored... or on the street, or with friends or whatever... I will just be plain stupid... Like trying to figure out of some things work and I end up breaking them... Or when I grab a carpet cleaner spray and start a war on cockroaches around the house.... Sometimes when I hung with friends I would get so stupid I would lean over a railing of a bridge that is 30 feet off the road or lake or whatever... Just because I am bored and want to try doing something right there and then.
Still not dangerous enough... What about the time when I went out on night while I was in Germany in the army and I took with me a katana and started to practice my swordsmanship on a tree in a parking lot at midnight?.... Or how about when I get my lighter and spraying butter thingy to make balls of fire around the house?... Good thing I dont like sodas and mentos that much... other wise my house would get VERY wet and loud by putting a shit load of menthos in a 2 lt coke bottle XD!!
In other words, I cannot be inactive for a long period of time or I will start to get weird...veeeery weird... More than usual...
The one good thing is that sometimes I am bored and my imagination starts to act up and I come up with awesome ideas... Like ideas for animes and videogames and music and art and a lot of other things 'artistic'...
Yesterday was one of those days of supremem boredom when I had nothing to do and I started to think alot about things that would be cool... in 2 hours I came up with 2 complete anime stories, 5 possible comic strips, an idea for a videogame, about 3 songs.. I also decided that if I ever made a band I would make songs in english but I would add a shitload of random languages to them... Think of how J-music incorporates English into their songs or how Nightwish includes Polish in theirs... I would sing in English but also add Spanish, German, Japanese, French and a couple of other languages to it.
While in those 2 hours I also looked up more info into mental health and I seem to have a lot in common with psychopatical standards.
My mind never shuts down, and now that I am dreaming like crazy, I know that my mind isn't even resting while I am sleeping anymore... You want to know a fun fact about me?
As of a couple of months now, I have had permanent black marks under my eyes... If you have seen the anime/manga called "Death Note" Then imagine how L's eyes look... Mine are now like that... not THAT black under the eyes, but you can still see the marks at first glance.
I don't know the reason why they are like that now, but I guess I'll look it up and post it tomorrow and see what I come up with...
But yeah... Because my mind doesn't shut down, I like to take mellow pills and keep my mind busy with games and stuff... otherwise I'd go nuts... more than I usually am anyways.
Friday, November 28, 2008
Back
I know it's been a while since I last wrote. I haven't been feeling all that great (I suspect the rape I received) And I've been sleeping like 16 hours a day for the past few.
Anyways, it's not like I've done anything important or interesting in these past few days, so it's all good.
Now, I think it is pretty much common knowledge that I don't like the Xbox... In fact, I kinda hate it... But desperate situations calls for desperate actions. Or at least desperate way of thinking.
I'm thinking about getting me an Xbox 360 just so I can play FFXI again... Seriously man, that is how desperate and bored out of my mind I am... I can't afford a new PS3 or PC, so the cheapest option is to get me an Xbox and get me the game for it...
I know it sounds pathetic that I am saying "desperate" but my account was suspended due to non paying almost 3 months ago.. and Dec 1st will mark the 3rd month and then the account will be deleted and I will have lost all my hard work T_T
So yeah... since my birthday is Dec 4th, I think I'll just ask for an Xbox for present... I think FFXI works with the original Xbox, so I might just get me the cheap old Xbox and get it over with...
*Stabs himself for thinking about getting the crapbox*
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Rape.
Ahem!... Let me start by giving you a definition of rape...
- The crime of forcing another person to submit to sex acts, especially sexual intercourse.
- The act of seizing and carrying off by force; abduction.
- Abusive or improper treatment; violation: a rape of justice.
With that being explained I can go ahead to tell you why I am bringing it up...
I have been brutally raped at tthat videogame tournament XD... My ass is still sore >_<... If you don't remember, the game being played was "Gears of War 2" on the Xbox 360.
Never played the game before in my life, only played on the 360 once in my life and the controllers were reussian to me... not to mentiont he lack of inverted caemra functionality >_<... well, regardless of the case, I have been brutally gang banged.
But it was still good fun and made a couple of friends =]
Now let me go get some ice for my anus.
Friday, November 21, 2008
Porn!?!?
You know.. Working at a gas station is boring. Specially the graveyard shift. There are it's pros and cons to working night shift.
On one hand I get a lot of time not working because normal people are sleeping at this time a day... But the con to that is that all the NOT normal people come out and start being retarded... That in itself pisses me off... But I manage.. what I can't manage is the boredom.
I used to read magazines at the store to pass the time and listen to some radio... Thing is taht I read all the good magazines quick and then I am bored for a couple more days.
So I came up with the grand idea of bringing in a DVD player to watch moies I haven't seen before =]... our store sells movies, so I can pretty much pick something...
Me work less and watch movies more = me happy.... Stupid eople all night = me not happy.
No usually, the two would balance themselves out and I'd be in a neutral mood all night... but then the morons have to take over and ruin the day....
Do you want to know the two questions I get asked when people realize I have a DVD player?
1~ What are you watching?
2~ Watching porn?
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Dammit people, stop being perverts and "funny".... Geez man, what is their problem!? Someone is watching something on DVD and it automatically becomes porn!?... Grow up people.... First of all, if I am going to watch porn, I would watch it at home... where I am alone and I can..... eeerrrm... have fun watching it >_>.
Second of all, I wouldn't watch pron at work because I'd get fired... simple, eh? Common sense... And as for you guys trying to be clever or funny... do you really think you are the first people to ask me if I am watching porn?
No... News flash guys... you are not clever and funny... you are annoying and stupid
I just wish I had a laptop to play some ROMs and stuff -.-
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Fun at the expense of George W. Bush
XD!!! This video is funny as hell.
Be warned that it is a long video, but it is sooooo worth watching it 'til the very end.
http://www.youtube.com/v/bMBFz1DXJF4&hl=en&fs=1
Enjoy and laugh a bit XD
Saturday, November 15, 2008
What Would You Do?
I'll bring up a question that someone has already asked you most likely.... What would you do if you had a million dollars? It's hard to answer that question without sounding like a hypocrite or selfish bastard.
You all know that one of the first things you would do with that kind of money, is get a cool car, place to live, new clothes, etc, etc... It's cool. I would do the same thing... except! I would only spend like 50k for those things.. jut a few good clothes a nice looking car, but nothing expensive.. and a nice little house... The house might cost more, but whatever... The point is... that is what I would do with my money... Well, atleast part of what I would do with it.
So what would I do with the remaining 900k+? I'd buy myself a bunch of combat things... sniper rifle, handgun, M16 with a short buttstock, NVG's, stealth clothing, etc, etc... What in the hell would I do with all that stuff!?... Answer is simple... go hunting for criminals.
You don't believe me, but I would honestly go kill criminals... I even have the perfect place for doing that... Venezuela!.. The police ain't worth shit there a like 70% of citizens are criminals that would kill you just for looking at them funny... Oooooh yeah, I would go to one of their shack communities in the mountains and I'd stalk them day and night from a distance and hidden... when I see something... *BANG!* one less scum in the world...
Let me see if I find a pic to show you the shack communities I'm talking about.... Found it....
http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/1/1e/Caracas_(Venezuela)_-_Los_barios.jpg
See that shit? 90% of people living there are killers and thiefs... It'd be like shooting fish in a barrel.... Maybe I'll buy a few incendiary devices and shit too.... Now those are the bad parts of Venezuela... but it wasn't always like that... want to see where I used to live? Let me look it up, and see if I find something.
http://www.mipunto.com/venezuelavirtual/galeria_fotos/caracas/images/1024_venezuela_caracas_distritocapital_loscaobos_mezquita_ibrahimal_ibrahim.jpg
Well, you can't actually see my building cuz it's like waaaay off in the distance. But see how different it looks? I soooo would put my military training to use and kill off a few hundred criminals... It's not like the law works there... people get away with murder everyday and no investigation is ever open... unless you are a very important person....
Whenever I got tired or needed to get more stuff, I would come back and chill for a few in the USA...
What do you say people that view this blog start donating towards the erradivation of criminals movement? after all.. peace has it's price too you know
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Edit: Found a lil thing with more pictures that better explain where I grew up kinda...
http://daniel.haxx.se/travel/southamerica/venezuela/caracas.html
BTW, he place mentioned "Sabana Grande" Is where my apt was located in =]
Friday, November 14, 2008
Hmmm.
Crappy map doesn't work... This piece of crap computer won't let me even see the map site that I used for myspace. it gives me some error and then it shuts the whole windows explorer down... and I can't get Firefox, so yeah....
I'm so bored... Think I'm gonna get a new computer before the year is over.. I hope. And I'll get to play FFXI again ^_^... Anyone up for donating a few hundred dollars? or a used computer that uses Windows me? I just need the tower, not the whole thing >_>..
Bleh!... Alrite, this be a blog, so let's recap of how I've done these past few days to deal with my boredom... I slept.. lots., worked a couple of days... I got 75% of Star Ocean 3 battle trophies. But I am too bored to maximize my gear to be able to get the other trophies... I mean, to get them all Ihave to play the whole game again 4 times... and that is a pain in the ass... I got like 224/300 Battle Trophies and that took me about 200 hours of gameplay already... BAH!
What else have I done... I've downloaded a few ROMs.... FFtactics Advance, Metroid Fusion and Zero Mission and I've just been playing those games... you have any idea how hard it is to play an action game like metroid with a keyboard? I can't press 3 keys at once because nothing will happen... it's a pain.
I am bored of those already... I would Dload some Anime to watch, but my internet is the crappiest thing ever, not to mention the computer itself... Man I'm so bored... I need a game that will keep me interested.. FFXI does that =]... lots and lots of things to do in that game.. I played for a whole year straight and got 1 job to the max lvl... there are 20 jobs XD.
OH! there is a videogame tournament next weekend.. it's the 1st gears of war game for the Xbox... thing is... I've never played the game or owned an Xbox XD... I'm still gonna give it a try and see how I do... there is no entry fee and there is free drinks and pizza =]... and the winner gets 100$ gift card for buying games with... I doubt I'll win since I've never played the game... but at least it'll keep me busy and free food ^_^
HEY! Speaing of FFXI... guess what I found out a couple of days ago... The whorish woman that cheated on me, is back to the server I play in XD Charlene is her name. Should be interesting to go online and see her walking about... wonder if she'll start speaking to me and bringing a bunch of drama again.... Screw that. If she does it I'll just black list her so I won't have to read her bitching and rambling.
Hmmmm... Maybe I'll play along with her and then screw her over... nah, I'm not like that...thought I think it'd be poetic justice, in truth it would only just be revenge or whatever.
*Yawn* I had a few dreams again, I'll just give ya a slight insight... in one I was on a world meeting or something and I was with mah family and there was that actor Shia beowulf or whatever... the kid from the transformers and indiana jones movie... Anyways, there was an attack or whatever and I was rallying up survivors cuz I was in the military, etc, etc... yawn...
There are a couple of things I;ve noticed with my dreams... They are mostly about me being in the world ending event and there are family and/or actors around... Bah... One of these days I'll clean up my apt.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Wahey! Knightley?
I'm thinking about adding a world map to the site, the same one that is on myspace. I'm kinda interested in knowing where the ppl that visit the site comes from ^_^ I'll look into it in a bit since Im so horribly bored out of my mind
Dreams dreams dreams... lots of em in a row. I kept waking and falling back asleep and the dream either continued or a different one came up.
First I remember is about me buying a movie theather and redecorating the walls by painting comic strips of videogames and such XD.. I think I wanted it to be a Geeks movie theater of sorts.. I'm weird like that.
As it turns out, the movie theater is part of a huge Mall and I'm kinda new to the Mall. Then I meet Keira Christina Knightley... o.0... And as it turns out, we have known each other since we were kids or something like that. She was surrounded by guys and eating ata Cafe or something, I just said hi and she gave me a kiss on the lips >_>?
She went back to her table and I left blushing, XD I walked around a bunch and then suddenly there was an attack by some ... things.. I don't really know what the hell they were. But anyways. I returned to the Mall and started fighting them off with improvised weapons that I found about.
I make a bomb with a bunch of gallon jugs of urine and set it off to drive the things away XD... in the end it turns out that the boss of the things was after Keira and I save her by using the bombs as distraction to get her away... fricking weird man..
Second dream was about me back in Venezuela with mah mum... She had 2 cars, a white and a red one. I got her to lent me the white one and I went to a party or something... on my way back I steal the red one for no reason by using a remote control <_<...
So I'm driving on a road by the side of a mountain and the red car is following me by copying everything I do with the white car... well, somethign happened and I lost control of the white car and hit the brakes trying to stop... the red car stopped on the road, but the white one I was driving continued to slide down the mountain and got all banged up and ugly... I knew mah mum was gonna kill me once she found out...
So I started driving the car up the hill and I completely forgot that the red car was still in remote control.... well. As I got the white car out, the red car fell down the mountain XD... yup... my mum wasn't happy when she saw both cars destroyed..
Last dream I was in, it felt like I was in a videogame... one of those 2D scrollers like Megaman.. So here I was, scrolling down the towns and checking out the arcades in each town but I liked none.... it wasn't until I reached the last town that I decided I liked and arcade.
So I go ahead and put my stuff inside a locker and start enjoying the games until ppl start attacking me... I get past them and run aaaaall the way back to where I start it... only to realize that I can't finish the game without the items I left inside that locker all the way at the end >_<... so the rest is just me tactifully killing enemies... lol...
All of these happened last night X.x...Maybe it's because I've been so bored lately that I am making adventures inside my head while I sleep XD
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